Only God has Answers

Spiritual journey.

Please don't tempt me, I feel so empty
looking for a quick fix and there seems to be plenty
but they won't last and right now neither can I
need answers, but G-d is silent, so all I ask is Why?

I try, were living in hell the youth don't know it
and we hold so much in, in fear of response if we show it
"who can understand? let me just put on a smile
everyone else seems so happy I'll be OK for a while"

but its all lies music to magazines politics to movies
we all want to feel free; like our life is in our hands, but do we?
 no he will sell you that dream and leave you deceived at one pop
and your addicted to that one thing and you can't stop

could be drugs could be love he will use anything
and when you sleep at night he'll attack you in your dreams
that's how it happen to me honestly I was just bored
who knew there was an underlying evil; a spiritual war

born a Jew, Hebrew school, went to church couldn't listen
I was just young, but I always felt something was missing
 first puff wasn't enough the fire just needed ignition
then the club transformed to hell that's when I saw his vision

I have regrets one is not living up to my potential
making excuses for being lazy not expanding my credentials
I have accomplished some but I've lost my passion
life use to be so fun, now it feels like everyone is acting

I can't feel s**t, in fact I feel like s**t
everyone is competing to win, if I could I'd quit
only one thing keeps me going... God then love
so if I regain my passion and find a mate maybe I'll escape

this nightmare, these nightmares they won't stop
these demons are fiending, I have something they don't got
they came so many times I don't even get scared anymore
I just wander when will it end? when will I see more

when can I stop pretending? When can I be at peace?
 when will this runaway train finally come to a screech?
One minute she's my dream girl, next minute she's a leach
next minute I love her, but unfortunately our hands can't reach

because she's over there, I'm over here
so I would feel like the love of my life was the scum of my life
couldn't get over her lying about being with him
and I held it against her, ungodly couldn't forgive that sin

at the time I thought sinning would win in the end
I feel responsible for a break up, I was sleep wouldn't wake up
It was just that feeling she gave me; wow so unreal
My heart felt paralyzed but suddenly I could feel

so was I wrong?... of course, we all want
and sometimes we go too far just to meet those wants
we lose sight of whats important and we lose ourselves
so he doesn't even need fire, because we create our hell

but if I could just talk to her I'd tell her this
I love you, thank you for never abandoning me 
you'll never know how I feel and hopefully you never will
I'm too weak, the strength I have left is when we speak

this isn't sounding poetic, this is sounding pathetic
but you mean that much, you give me that rush
and I would go wherever, whenever, just to feel your touch
so that's why my world is so fucked up

the things that look and feel so good aren't always for us
its becomes hard to trust and everything becomes rushed
because we have questions, but only God has answers.