Tearless

personal poem

I sit within pages,

reading lies between lines 

and listening to the lives

that the words display

before me.

Remember the days of better times, 

living one moment just because

and laughing out loud without

abbreviations. 

We pocket memories that won't last

unless they are scarred upon 

the innermost corners of ourselves. 

Speaking of scars...

I've lost count of mine. 

At times they still hurt, 

like a phantom limb that isn't

there but the brain still wants

to see. There is no logic

that keeps me trapped

inside my story, 

running through 

forgotten chapters 

with bold headings

and cliff-hanger endings

but that continue to 

bleed until the end

is written on the last 

piece of paper.

I suffer heartache 

like a common cold,

over and over 

until my nose runs 

and my eyes are puffy

and I can no longer cry. 

Perhaps if I cried again,

just one more time,

I could heal. 

I could sew up these open wounds

that I won't let anyone see, 

and turn them into scars that 

I am no longer ashamed of...

... but even as I write and read,

even as my voice cracks 

and my jaw trembles... 

there are no tears.

So instead, 

I will draw out my emotions

with a keyboard, 

type them up with a string

of words put together

to form a thought 

that I didn't know I had. 

I will place band-aids

with my fingertips, 

glue my soul 

with letters

and prose 

until I am out of breath 

from my poetry. 

I'll be chained to a part of me

that no one ever sees

but that they only ever feel

because my sentences

hit home harder than

any hug ever could. 

I sit between the pages 

of my life, 

breathe pieces of myself

into the lies that I speak 

and the truth that I type.

The only question is...

who will care enough 

to find the difference?

Reviews

[J3ssInJupit3r]

Pardon my language, but F***!! You literally just blew my mind. Your words with their emotion. With their passion. With the feeling. So incredible I clung to each word as if clinging to a raft in open water. Maybe your title can be something simple like: No Tears or Read Between The Lines, something like that? Just a suggestion! Thank you for sharing