Leave your apology after the tone

Stereotypical rape poem. Not my story. Possible trigger warning.

You have seventeen unheard messages.

The last time we spoke, 

you said 'sorry.' 

Like a simple apology could

make up for the things 

that you took.

like my pain was erasable 

with a string of words 

clustered together

on a hangman's noose.

Sorry. 

You said it was a 'mistake.' 

You walked away when it was 

all said and done, 

and I was left in a puddle 

of mumbled apologies 

and self hatred. 

Sorry.

I wasn't afraid. 

I wasn't angry. 

Simply confused,

and hurt;

I didn't understand 

how you could do this.

Sorry.

No. You don't get to pretend

like it's that easy. 

It doesn't get to be that 

smooth of an escape. 

Sorry

I'm sorry

I'm not sorry. 

I'm not sorry I was there that night. 

I'm not sorry I was trusting 

and naive. 

I'm not sorry I trusted you 

because I was a woman 

and you were my friend. 

I'm not sorry for that. 

But you will be. 

You have eighteen unheard messages.

You'll be sorry when you

realize that the reason I haven't

answered your calls 

is because the noose 

your words had formed 

around my neck

was tangible against my skin. 

You'll be sorry when you realize 

that your apology cut its way 

across my wrists and that the 

little white bubbles you placed in my drink

brought back one too many memories 

of us getting black out drunk together. 

You're not sorry for taking my body;

You have nineteen unheard messages.

you're sorry for getting caught. 

sorry. 

You mumbled it like you were

uncomfortable in the silence 

that followed. Like it was 

somehow my fault that 

things were awkward. 

sorry

It was spoken as an afterthought, 

an 'I'm sorry for your loss' 

automatic response 

like it's what society 

expects you to say.

sorry

sorry I drugged you

so you wouldn't remember 

having sex.

sorry

sorry I lied about you having

quickies behind the bar 

so you wouldn't ask questions.

sorry. 

sorry I raped you.

No. You're not sorry. Not yet.

But you will be.

You have twenty unheard messages.

Reviews

[SnowWhiteQu33n]

Amazing. Very powerful and beautifully structured.