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just a little piece about life of an lgbtq person

I’m somewhere deep in the closet and somehow lost myself
they buried me under tons of gossips that’s my final farewell

I give myself all the pain thinking I deserve it
I check my veins if they are cake doubt if it’s all worth it

I can hear you talking behind my back
feeling like I’m surrounded by a goddamn wolf pack
my hands are shaking
gosh, I’m close to panic attack 

yeah, I know that I’m not fine
but darling that’s because of you
nobody asked your stupid opinion
about things, I never got to choose

I’m so f*****g jealous for you straights
'cause I can’t even touch his hand
I cannot act like it’s all great no more 

Jun, 2020

Author's Note

that's a drafted version