Thank You For Your True Love.

A poem about my feelings on love :)

I tried.

I fell short.

I was never good enough.

Never nice enough.

Never smiling enough.

Never pretty enough.

Never interesting enough.

Never smart enough.

Never 'perfect' enough.

Never enough.

I always said the wrong things

at the wrong times,

I always became mad when I shouldn't have.

I always seemed to make you angry.

I always asked too many questions.

I always was too serious.

I always was too goofy.

I always couldn't give you good advice.

I always could never fill your needs.

I always was never 'perfect'.

I always fell short.

 

I've thought about how that made me feel-

how it still sometimes makes me feel.

Thought about how I would never feel

good enough.

Thought about how other people were always better than me

for you.

Thought about how I could just never measure up-

and how I still can't.

 

But what used to hurt me every day,

every time I thought about you,

reminisced over the memories with you,

doesn't hurt...as much.

And in the future,

I know I'll be able to look upon the memories with a gladness.

Because I've found the one I love.

And His name is Jesus.

 

He doesn't care

whether I look beautiful twenty-four-seven,

whether I can measure up,

whether I can 'fit in' with the crowd,

whether I can pull excellent grades all the time,

whether I can be the best basketball player,

whether I am the smartest in my class,

whether I can meet His needs,

whether I talk too much,

whether I ask too many questions,

whether I say the wrong things at the wrong times,

whether I cry when I'm sad,

whether I am always catching His interest,

whether I am perfect,

or whether I am good enough or not.

He loves me regardless.

I'm beautiful to Him because he formed me,

made me,

and loves me ALL the time,

and not just conditionally.

He is constantly seeking me out,

even when I am pushing Him away from me,

even when I don't treat Him the way I should.

He is always there, begging me to be with Him,

to work on my relationship with Him.

Even when I "don't feel like it" that day.

Or am "too busy" in my "packed" life to talk with Him.

Even when I make Him angry,

He still loves me.

He looks out for me.

He protects me.

Even when I am at my worst.

He even loves me regardless on

whether I'm perfect or not.

He loves me for me,

His creation.

To me, this is true love.

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