Apologies...

Apologies...

A Poem by Briony Bryant

I am so sorry, sorry that no amount of perfectly placed words can erase the pain that I caused. 
I was young and broken. 
Incapable of loving anything else with a beating pulse, not even my own. 
I was drowning quick, clawing at anything that could keep me above water. 
I am sorry that it was you.
I can still feel the way my nails dug into your skin, leaving those pretty little scars. 
I am sorry that you liked the way it felt. 
The night on the stair case, 
when I told you I tried to take my own life and you took me by the hand and led me into that dark room, 
I only kissed you because I didn’t want to talk. 
I’m sorry that my cowardly lack of words were mistaken for lust, love. 
I secretly hoped you would have bit off my tongue just so I couldn’t speak again.
But instead you wrapped your soft hands around me and held me close. 
Forcing me to listen to your heartbeat next to mine on that single mattress bed. 
No amount of vodka could make me forget the hollowness I felt inside myself that night. 
I’m sorry you couldn’t fix me, I’m sorry it broke you instead.

© 2014 Briony Bryant


Author's Note

Briony Bryant
Thinking of maybe expanding on this and writing a series of "letters".... let me know what you guys think! All comments/ suggestions appreciated (:

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I enjoyed the poem. A real life feel to the words. I understand the poem. I like the honest tone and the strong ending. Sometimes we don't want to be fixed. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

Posted 9 Years Ago


An honest write filled with emotions. Bravo...............

Posted 10 Years Ago


Briony Bryant

10 Years Ago

Thanks so much!!
Sami Khalil

10 Years Ago

You are welcome...:).....................
Emotive...and captures feelings that most people felt before, even I...the awkwardness of it all, even when intentions are good, it gets blurry. I Love it.

Posted 10 Years Ago


Briony Bryant

10 Years Ago

Thank-you!!
Babe Roxx

10 Years Ago

You are very welcome, Briony.

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Added on March 13, 2014
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Tags: love, heart break, regret, apology, depression, suicide, letter

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Briony Bryant
Briony Bryant

Canada



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