how our sex only brought excitement

you were my world,

I loved you

with a full heart.

 

I felt your pain,

as you shook wild

on my bedroom floor.

 

you took too much.

I watched helpless,

as you lay helpless.

 

you were so beautiful

but when you cried,

it scared me.

 

I hoped you’d live,

I hoped my kiss

kept you in reality.

 

my phone made no calls,

no ambulance,

you took it.

 

I watched you slip

deeper into your head,

reality fizzled.

 

you disappeared,

into a dark place.

we were strangers.

 

rolling blue eyes,

tiny lips dribble,

spit from a seizure -> how I swore it’s my fault