And it just keeps going

Powerless to stop the hurt I cause myself over you

And so I sit back and soak it all in

All the uncertainty that drowns me

All the jagged pieces that rip me apart even now

After so long still not able to break the hold

you have around my broken heart

 

Still i sit by your side when I should turn and run

I hold your hand even when I felt no warmth in them

I kiss your tainted lips always knowing

I'm not the only one that's touched them

But even then I can't turn you away

 

The love for the man you could be still grows

Without power over the feelings that kill my pride

and wound the self respect I once had

That smile still melts my heart and makes me dream

I need to wake myself before I can't come back from this

 

Losing you would crush my soul but keeping you

takes that little bit I have left slowly away

I've lost myself in you

You have me wrapped around, I'm yours to control

Yours to manipulate, you do it so well

 

Maybe one day I'll gather the stregnth to leave you alone

but I can't promise it'll be with no regrets

But as it is I love you more than I had hoped I ever would

And your touch still lights me on fire

Your eyes still burn right through me

 

Reviews

[Imperfection]

This made me very sad.
Very strong emotions depicted here.
Excellent write.

But as it is I love you more than I had hoped I ever would

And your touch still lights me on fire

Your eyes still burn right through me

-my favorite lines here.