RETRIEVAL

"reversed side" _Deepeye 1999_

I KNOW I WAS SENT AWAY,

BUT MY FEELINGS, I KNOW, IT WILL STAY;

FOR I REMAIN IN MY STATIC STATE,

HOPING HER DECISION WILL  AMEND,

LIKE A MOOD CONSTANTLY CHANGING.

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ACCEPTING THE HURTING BLOWS SHE HAS GIVEN,

NOW I KNOW WHAT I'VE FELT IS FORBIDDEN.

EXPECTEDLY, THOUGH I KNOW IT WILL HAPPEN;

I STILL REMAIN CALM AND STEADILY HOPING.

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THEN I RETURNED TO WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN,

OF RETRIEVING HER, PRAYING IT COULD HAPPENED,

MORE THAN I'VE EVER HOPED FOR, 

THOUGHTS OF RETRIEVAL, FROM US COINCIDED.

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I NEARLY LOST SOMEONE SO DEAR TO ME,

HAVEN'T I DONE SOMETHING TO PREVENT  ATROCITY,

IF IT WOULD BE A CRIME TO SET YOU FREE;

THEN A CRIMINAL I WOULD RATHER NOT BE.