Aches and Pains

Silence of me

 Uncertainty blames my emotions

Heavy words break my sanity

Broken doors

Difficult to even try anymore

I again lose my mind to solitude

Dreams of never feeling pain

Search for happiness leads me to my origins

I feel myself wanting to give up

To sleep

Neurotic energy tortures me through the evenings transpirations

I blink at my life

I close my eyes to hide

Maybe alone is where I too need to find myself

A step towards bad advice

On my heels without an instigation

Infuration balls my fists

Rage breaks my logic

Guilt weighing on my shoulders

I am really without an answer

I really don’t know this time

All I want is to live as if my heart has already stopped beating

A true aspiration

Until then I’ll dream.

Until then I’ll write.

Finally I’ll live in my present.

Leaving the past behind and futures terribly tumultuous uncertainty at ease