Ma

I remember when my mother would scratch my back 

as I would watch television

Who would of thought after 4 years , she would no 

longer be in my vision

I.

The times I would kiss her goodbye before heading out

to school

One year away from her and her absence 

hit me at minuscule

II.

I can't front a.k.a. I can't lie 

When thinking about family, I just close my eyes 

and take a deep sigh 

III. 

Cause like what I can I do? , the situation is

far too complex 

Holidays , sick days , birthdays 

no calls no text

IV.

I've always kept my business on the low

kept it very discreet

But the vacancy of a needed one slowly started 

to creep  

V.

The word stable and family , I've never used in a sentence before

Until now

If you only knew 10 % of my story , one word you'll use to summarize it all would be 

wow 

VI. 

So mother if you ever learn English and you decide to 

read this

Just know you have three sons that I know deep inside you that 

you miss

VII.

So I hope this poem , these words, this agony can change my family 

and maybe the relationship can convert

because time after time , we all know we're hurt 

done

But the saying of keep your head , I'm living up to it.

Take me as an epitome

God knows what he's doing therefore I don't need

no f*****g sympathy 

Reviews

[DCT ponderings]

I have an estranged relationship with my Mother. One that I have had to come to terms with as an adult. I have done what is right for myself. I have hit "done" and I too have hope of a one day when my words will be heard, when I will be understood. Or so this bittersweet poem spoke to me. Great write!

[redflutterby]

I was blessed to have a wonderful mother who always put us first. I know others didn't have the same experience. On the other hand my father and I have struggled through the years. He has by his own choice not participated in my life for much of the past years. I don't want anyone's sympathy because of that...it is what it is. Though I bear the scars of it in many ways. Poignant poem!

[Erica]

I feel like i can relate, i don't talk to my mother anymore, but when i read this, it gave me a flashback to all the memories i did have with her...Love this, keep writing.

[Stephen]

My mother passed away when I was 7 years old, what I wouldn't do to have her back. to have her let me take a nap on her lap, to have her rub her thumb on my eye brows when I'm sick. to hear the words "I LOVE YOU" one more time. I miss my mom deeply, she is the reason I write poetry-stories and such. I will keep her memory alive, I will always love her, and I know I will see her again someday. A very touching poem. It flooded me with memories, ones that I will never let get washed away. Thank You for the Images that will never go dim with age. THANK-YOU!

[CRZ]

Its very sad what life makes us go through. Thank you for sharing a little segment about your mom. Much respect, your memories will only turn stronger throughout the years and that's good! I'm glad this wasn't just any poem to you, deeper than that & that you felt it. Take care man!

[Zeverin Kpai]

vision, is it diciplanary or circumstantial? I wonder.

[Maxine]

This is beautifully written, though bittersweet and sad beyond words, and I send you my deepest wishes for your best in the future.

[BL]

Very powerful - Original layout - Quite sad overall - Like the two line Stanzas

[Girl Friday (Sarah W.)]

Such a sorrow filled piece...you may not need sympathy, but these words call for a quiet moment, a bowed head and remembrance. This reminds me of my grandmother...I recently wrote a piece about her wedding band, and it's the same feeling. There is loss, there is disconnection, but there is also that straight shouldered, head upright resilience that makes humans beings so beautifully strong. Well done and very touching.

[Cassie]

This is a sad poem and though you have said you dont need any sympathy, I feel you.

[Kristin Lee]

Lot of angst in this piece. I recognize a lot of the feelings though, especially since they are targeted at the matriarch of the family and my mother died when I was 8. You expressed you point very well. In fact, this was one of your more well written pieces. Great job.

[TL Boehm]

This thing hit me right between the eyes. I am the mom of two males. One just moved out and its been difficult - because I'm done and I don't get a chance to amend any thing that I may have done wrong. He's 'Grown' - and I pray I did well for him.
Then there's this: My parents divorced and my mom dropped a bomb on me when i was an adult - I now don't know if my biological father is the man who raised me and who is now deceased, or her second husband with whom I have a minimal relationship. It is SO hard when families don't work the way they are supposed to. SO hard.