Shadow Man

Shadow Man

A Poem by Not here

Sometimes we all feel like shadows, unnoticed.
For moments at a time we just want to be quoted
or at least be noted by those who we doted
upon. It's pure bogus for us who are poets
to depend on others opinions of us now.
Even if not poets, none of us will hush down
until the things we want to say are said.
Some of us would even give our daily bread
just to get a chance, a moment in time
where we might, with a little luck, unleash rhymes
and get everybody listening to understand
all the pain and the problems we've been through. My hand
is available to anybody who needs it.
All my days were spent as I freed it.
The shadows I kept inside for much too long,
and I understand now that they came out wrong.
I could have done it differently, maybe made it better
but to be quite honest, one single letter
to you all could never hope to capture the emotions
I felt inside of me, like some witch's potion
it bubbled up and eventually bubbled over
as I sat waiting and watching, four-leaf clovers
in my hand hoping it wouldn't be too bad.
In the end, though, I was just so mad
so I took a sledge-hammer and broke the damn dam,
spraying a flood of water everywhere. Now I am
so much different than I every would have thought.
It seems that after so many years I finally bought
into the mindset of unnatural insanity.
Full of profanity, used to be into Christianity.
Nowadays, I still care just as much for humanity
but the mannerism in which I do it has become full of vanity.
That might as well be my middle name cause my sanity
is leaving me behind forever, goodbye, goodbye!
I hope that on your way you burn, crash, and die!
You, my sanity, were pointless and never helped me along.
No, the only thing you ever did was make me feel wrong.
You got me cheated on, deleted on, and mistreated on.
Now I'm here on the bench that I'm just seated on.
Side of the roads are the most familiar part of town
for me as I continue to travel on down
this path I'm taking, and this path I chose.
I tried to appease the rows of all my foes
but now I know that I could even go
to the ends of the world but they would still not know
how to respond to me, so they would fight and cry
and bite and pinch and eventually kill my soul. Why
are people so mean sometimes? Well, I don't understand
but I know exactly the place where they should go and 
they should stay away from me forever. I'm too busy
trying to get back to me. I'm now dizzy.
I'm just a shadow, walking the world alone.
My homeless home-town neighborhood tone
of my voice is getting a little bit on my nerves.
I'd rather not just try to go and conserve
all the power I have because it will never be enough.
I got a few cards, but I'm no good at calling bluffs
or faking them for that matter. It's much more sad
when i see a homeless person walking up the street, mad.
Headphones on, hood up, rocking to the beat
and I can tell by the way they drag their feet
they'd rather be dead. Yeah, they'd rather be gone
but they're stuck here for one reason or another. As long
as they are alive, they are sad and wasting away.
Everyday they wake up is just another day.
I don't know what I should say, but on the inside
I feel like I belong with them more. I abide
in a state of disaster, with nothing more to say.
I waste away and a way I waste another day
is by sitting here, wishing I could write a rap song,
but instead of a song I write some foolish sing-a-long.
In the end, it's a disaster like the rest.
I want to be quoted as one of the very best,
but the road there is so long and so weary
I might end up falling over, looking teary.
After all, I'm just a shadow in the dust.
No matter what I do, though, I know that I must
carry on walking this road that I chose.
Hopefully, someday, I won't still appose
my mind and my brain and everything else I feel.
To be honest, I don't know if this is real.
Am I anything more than a shadow on the road?
Whatever I am, I'm about to implode.
So watch out world, cause it's all coming down.
Slowly but surely, my shadow is coming around.

© 2015 Not here


Author's Note

Not here
Some days we all feel like a shadow...

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david, as my illness gets worse your pieces are getting harder and harder to review. there's an element of sameness to them all that further impairs my ability to give you an honest review. I'm not blaming you I'm blaming my worsening illness, I'm sorry. take care...dan

Posted 9 Years Ago


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9 Years Ago

hey its okay dan, dont worry about it, and keep your head up man, there is always hope
You never disappoint do you? :)
Anothr truthful piece of writing, talks about everyone in the world and how we all feel at some time.

I like how you say: Why do people have to be some mean? I mean seriously, why? why can't they just tell you things in calm and civilized way instead of hurting in them in some way.
We all feel like shadows, we're born like shadows, but slowly we become visible to the sun lights, because we keep changing for good.
Great poem David, really, its really cool

Posted 9 Years Ago


All of us have those days where we question our existence.
But the rainbow comes only after it has rained, so hey!

Posted 9 Years Ago


This is definitely my new favourite of your poems. The emotion that comes out here is immense and obvious. Also I really liked the flow it took; it sounded a lot less like rap than some of your other poems (at least when I read it) which I love.
Awesome job here and keep putting your writing in my read requests!

~Ri

Posted 9 Years Ago


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9 Years Ago

thanks :) ill gladly keep doing both
I enjoyed this poem, you can do anything and everything you put your mind too. i understand what you're feeling, but you will an can push through! You've got this!!

Posted 9 Years Ago


You are right, there are times when we feel like shadows.... Anyhow, nice write.

Posted 9 Years Ago


This is a deep amazing poem full of feelings that just needed to get out. I sure as hell have days where I just feel like a shadow... more days than not actually. It would be amazing to have thoughts heard, adored and worshipped by millions... I guess all we can do is keep pushing trying and hoping something we write connects with an entire generation. Awesome write buddy!

Posted 9 Years Ago


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9 Years Ago

thank you :) im glad you liked it man
I think we all sometimes do feel like a shadow...very good work!
Thanks for sharing
Maumil

Posted 9 Years Ago


very desperado

i think it does capture how everyone feels at some point or another
i guess its just apart of what makes us human

which, in spite of our loftiest ambitions
even the best artist isnt completely immune to being


-Dream

Posted 9 Years Ago


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9 Years Ago

yeah thats definitely true, and desperado is such a fun word !!
closed

9 Years Ago

it is a fun word lol
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9 Years Ago

lol yeah it really is

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Added on May 4, 2015
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