If I were She/She were Me

 

If I were she,

she were me

 

I’d look upon her with

Sweet recognition,

Understanding.

I know her well.

How I love her so.

 

She was the very essence of

Confidence

Bordering on

Cockiness.

Oh, I wish I could share with the world:

it was all a front.

 

Underneath it all,

She was

Full of self-doubt.

She didn’t even believe in her own

Beauty.

So very beautiful, inside and out

Beauty so real you could reach out

And touch it.

And didn’t believe in her own

Talent.

So very talented, you could see it

Coming off her,

Surrounding her;

It was her aura. 

Her halo.

Her cross to bear.

I know her

Well.

How I love her so.

 

Underneath it all,

She was precociously complex

Complex simplicity

Organized chaos.

My very own

Walking contradiction. 

Nothing really mattered at all.

So she said.

But it all mattered.

Her tender heart took it all in.

Her sensitivity

That she hid so well

Made her mourn for

Things gone by.

Time gone by.

Opportunities gone by.

People gone by.

She wanted to act like

It didn’t matter, but

I know her well.

How I love her so.

 

She drove me f*****g crazy.

She never knew what she wanted.

Did she want me?

Or was I just her friend?

All apart of being that

Walking contradiction,

I suppose.

 

Underneath it all,

She was the best person I knew.

My very best friend.

She loved me unreasonably,

As I did her. 

So, even though she drove me

F*****g crazy,

Never knew what she wanted,

Didn’t believe in her beauty,

Her talent,

And nothing really mattered,

I would be there for her

By her side.

I would make sure that she

Believed.

I would make sure it

Mattered

I would help her figure out what she

Wanted

(even if it was never me)

I would do my job in her life.

Play my role.

 

I know her better than anyone.

She knew me too.

How I love her so.

Reviews

[Brjden (Bridge-Den) Cre..]

Don't listen to this lady beneath me! It was perfect! I didn't even notice any vulgarity(that may be saying something to my natural love of vulgar words, but anyway), but it is soooooo beautiful D! I love your commitment to someone that may not deserve it(judging from the outside looking in), but you really understand her, which gives you solace to your decision to ride out!

"Underneath it all,
She was precociously complex
Complex simplicity
Organized chaos."

These lines set up perfectly as to how you describe her as a "walking contradiction"(aren't we all). Great piece my love, and I hope to grow up to be a poet just like you one day!!!!

[Seneca L.]

Beautifully written, deep, and touching. Great job, once again :-)

[Kat Williams]

Interesting...in a good way. Like most I read it svrl times with each reading offering more, while taking less. Love that it can be taken in so many ways depending on the day/time/moment of the reader. At first I was thinking u were talking self, then I thought by she's talking two, by the end it did not matter.

[Phunkadelique]

I read this 3 times, back-to-back-to-back!! GREAT poem!! I'm not sure if it was done intentionally or not, but I especially like how it is written in such a way that the reader can find his or her own interpretation of what it means. For me, this reminds me of my ex and it explains our past and continued relationship to this day...i like the bit of contradictory/oxymoronic details too:

Underneath it all,
She was precociously complex
Complex simplicity
Organized chaos.
My very own
Walking contradiction.

And I read some of the other reviews...I personally think the language used was perfect for the mood and vibe you were trying to convey (or at least what I thought to be the mood lol)...something as passionate as love, especially loving someone who may fail to love themselves, is truly a "vulgar" predicament for both parties to be in, in itself!! And speaking from experience, yes...it does drive you f*****g crazy lol *thumbs up*

[Dreamy]

Goodness this makes me get a tear in my eye. I thought I was the only one capable of putting on such a facade in front of others.....I truly love this poem. Thank you for sharing.

[Michael X]

This really strikes me as a self reflection for who do we know better than ourselves, or perhaps
someone we used to be in a time gone by, it touching how your words draw the heart to ponder,
this is an artfully crafted work of insight that moves the reader with its beautiful, raw endearment.
awsome writing, and a pleasure to read such depth and passion

[Here's What I Say]

Well, this one is lovely. Reminds me of the way I think of myself. ^_^ This was beautiful and emotional .

[Tiana]

I absolutely loved it. It's obvious you have much love for your friend and she is so fortunate to have you in her life. You make up for what she lacks and build her up which is one of the qualities of being a great friend. Wonderfully written! Thanksa for sharing. I really enjoyed it ... hugs

[Greg Skura]

Wow nice poem! Thank You!

[Jay Jay]

I found this poem really powerful.
worded beautifully..this really touched my heart great job.

(thanks for the review ^_^ )

[feline_fairy]

What I like about this poem is that you're never quite sure if the 'she' is another person, or if the writer is talking about herself - maybe the person she used to be, or the person she wants to become. You also bring across the sense of jealousy mixed with affection and genuine love very well in a non-conflicting almost in-synch way which is really good.