depression

Had a bad day wrote this poem to help me vent

How can someone so quiet be screaming at home

Running from the pain and crying her self to sleep

How can that same girls smile light up a room and make everyone happy

How can they not notice her pain 

The bruises she hides and the scars

How do they not know the white lies she tells like I'm fine, or my day was good

How do they not notice that she continues with small talk to avoid talking about her past

They dont realise she's drowning and 

They dont realise shes lost and doesn't know what to do

She wakes up in the middle of the night from fear that her dreams bring

No one talks to her in school and she has few friends there for her

She can't eat and pretends that she's not losing all her weight

Her tears have became her lullaby 

But she's tired

She's tied of crying

She's tired of hiding 

She tired of lies

She's tired of trying 

Just tired 

She wants to sleep 

She wants to eat 

she wants to let someone in 

She wants to be happy again

She wants to be as happy as she makes others

But she can't so she cries harder

Falling deeper into the black hole she's created in her mind

Hoping that someday someone will look in her eyes and stop her from saying goodbye

Author's Note

This is a newer one I just finished hope you like it

Reviews

[sara]

I can relate to this on a deep level, dealing with my own clinical depression. What I continually would ask myself is how people do not notice something is wrong when it was so apparent to me. If you need someone to talk to who understands this feeling, feel free to message me. Have a nice day

[Autumn May]

Thank you Sara I know you posted this comment literally years ago and i never did respond then... honestly i had no clue how to respond, youre words meant a great deal to me then as they do now. I am finally understanding that even the smallest things could have the biggest impacts on us... For a few years I lost my passion for writing and i have finally found it again and reading your comment again has made me realize how special writing can be. Words can have a huge impact on someones life just like yours did on mine... i hope you are doing well and have a nice day