In My Thoughts

There's something in the way you look at me

That little curve in your smile

The crinkles in the corners of your eyes

I can't describe it

I'm completely breathless

Thinking about how you touch me

fingers clawing my skin and hair

There've been many others before you

I've dipped my toe and it's felt divine

But no one has left me like you did

grasping at air and lost for words

I'm alone now tasting nothing

I fall asleep with nothing 

wanting the comfort of your embrace

Every day I wake up the same way

Before I pull myself up I keep my eyes slightly closed

Because I remember how we met that first day

We'd sat together barely saying a word

Eyes glued to the cartoons on the TV

Ignoring the furtive glances and glares

of everyone else in our company

Why did you stick around for me

All my life I've been told over and over again

You're nothing, you're worthless

I believe it when I'm alone and look in the mirror

All I see are the flaws standing there

Ever since I was old enough to know how

I've battled myself day in and day out

Exhausted and bloody but still fighting

Against the form I've been given

But one look from you and the voices go silent

You looked at me and I felt the earth move

It's been months and yet my world is still shifted

Every thought I have now has you somewhere

hidden between each line.

Reviews

[Kurayami]

This is a deep poem. The emotion in this poem is clear. I like it.

~Kurayami