For Torture, For Pleasure

For Torture "

"I'll never forget those nights."

I finally can say it aloud

What he did to me in those dark nights

I'll never forget it, so long as I live

My body went numb each time he touched me

I would pant hot, steaming breath against his neck

I said "No", and it always made him smile

When he would ask me "Does it hurt you when I do this?"

I'd be too weak to speak, and he knew his answer

When he would ask me "Does it feel good when I do this?"

I would shake my head, and that's when he would begin.

"Are you scared?"

In public

I didn't think I'd get to smile ever again

People would watch us, and knowingly nod their heads

"They look so happy, I'm so glad for them."

I always made sure they saw, because I knew this pleased him

I'd squeeze his hand when people turned, to let them know I was okay

From them on, wherever we walked

Thats when I knew he'd never leave me alone

I'll never forget his face when I finally told him

"I'm gonna be brave and let someone know."

I'm tired of running away

I didn't realize just how badly

I needed to rest, I needed to learn to breathe

He allowed me the chance to remember that

I was nothing at first, never would be, but then

He took me in his arms and held me close

Suddenly

At first, I thought I was gonna be sick

So I bottled it all in and pretended I was happy

I couldn't let him see how badly it hurt me

The memories plagued me every day

And no matter how many times I pushed them away

It were still there

I pushed the hurt out of my brain, but even I knew

I couldnt run away, no matter how badly I feared

I had to face the realization early that

He would forever be burned on my heart

And then...I met the love of my life.

For Pleasure '

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

The title caught my attention and the story brought me in and held me. The strong description create places and visions of fake smile and laughter. I did like the positive ending. Sometime we need bad roads to find the good ones. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[Emunah June.]

Thank you so much!! It means so much to me that you reviewed this! Why don't you try reading the poem backwards? ;)

[Coyote Poetry]

I shall. I like the turn of the poem. Change the meaning of the poem.

[Eagle Cruagh]

"And then I met the love of my life"..
Great line--- it sort of sums up the way life is.
Just when you think you will never recover from his kiss, you
discover the REAL TH IN G !
I wrote you several months ago and my message was silly, what else is there ?
So , you must write and tell me about life--- I will avoid themention of those
liberal words to which you object, I object also, But I do love your poetry.
----- Eagle Cruagh