I DIDN'T KNOW

Grieving and loss

I DIDN’T KNOW
 

A very good friend called me today to let me know that her husband had died suddenly. He had been sitting in his chair while she was outside and they found him slumped over. I could tell by talking to her that she was still in shock and disbelief. This if for Judy... I am so sorry....and I'm here for you.' I didn’t know you would leave me today and I’m sure it was not what you planned. Did I tell you I loved you this morning, when I reached out to touch your hand? I didn’t know I would feel so alone and scared, though I still haven’t cried. I wonder how long it will take to feel the absence of you by my side. I didn’t know life would keep passing by as though you’d not mattered at all; doesn’t anyone hear me when I speak can’t they hear my sad mourning call? I didn’t know friends would just turn away and keep talking ‘bout everyday things, while I sit here wondering if maybe someday I will take off my gold wedding ring. I didn’t know you would leave me today I don’t think that God understands, I wanted to tell you I loved you once more while we walked holding each other’s hand. © Forrest Phelps-Cook