It's NOT a Phase

Don't you dare tell me its just a phase.
I walk down the streets, 

and wonder if the cars are going fast enough to kill me if I run infront of them

I go to the subway, 

and wonder if any of the secuirity gaurds will be able to run fast enough to catch me when I throw myself infront of the train.

I look at a bridge

 and wonder how long its gonna take to kill me if I jump off. 

So no. I'm not okay.

This isn't normal. 

And its not just a f*****g phase. 

Author's Note

Constructive criticism is welcome.

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

A powerful poem...:)..................

[Lydia Shutter]

Obviously you are clinically depressed. That is a serious condition. No, this is not a phase. You must see a mental health counselor and work out your problems. There is nothing to be embarassed about. Save yourself. You expressed your emotions well here.

[JSG]

its not a phase, its a progressional trend of negativity that led u here, whether it was bad choices or dealt a bad hand the manifestation of the repetitive outcome leads to self induced end to existance. The first and last phrases of" its not a phase" tells that even in the thought of self destruction n no longer existing, u are still trying to explaining to someone else. that you are serious and this is real. This is not how u feel from the inside out , but how the outside made u feel within. True realization comes from within, manipulation comes from your surroundings. let go of the influences of your outside world... and create yourself, from within. "Say What You Mean, Smile From Within, n Listen Without Influence" In the blink of an eye u could start a new life,, its time

[Connor Burns]

I feel you on every level of this poem. These words are well spoken and put properly in place to show the urgency and the evil thoughts of death and suicide. I feel for you and i encourage you to keep writing to help this pain and suffering bleed into these words and carry this feeling away from you. This isn't a phase and i know this for a fact for i have been through this many times. I appreciate that someone speaks out on this and reminds people that it isn't normal and that suicide is real and always will be. Well done, and i write the same way so feel free to read my stuff too.