Dark Waiting

a poem about relationships

Deftly I avoid
your greedy hands
why do you come for me?
I am your seed!

I awaken at night
to feel you
plummet inside me
my tears and pain
are not your concern

In daylight too
you come for me
I see the torture
in your eyes
I love you
but can never forgive
your theft
of my childhood

I’ve come to expect now
what you do
waiting in the dark
for you to take
what is not yours

Now there’s peace
after you’re done
I sleep without dreams

Waiting
in the dark
vaguely wondering
what if you don’t come
now that I need your release

What monster
have you made me
now I crave
what you do?

I creep
to your room now
crawl on you
ride you
crying
daddy I need you

Help me forgive you
forgive myself
for what we do
I’m not even twelve
how can that be?