Thinking too much?

I was stuck in a situation where I had to choose between two people that I really cared about. A lesson learned, I guess.

So this is the fate that she's met today,
a lasting impression that wont go away
She says, "I can't let this go, I wont sleep tonight,"
While he's promising her it will all be alright
In her dreams she pictures field's of bright, yellow flowers
Alone, but at ease, her mind sleeps for hours
If she wakes up, she knows that she'll still feel down
So she promises herself that she'll wake up leaving this town
While her body it shakes from this lasting impression,
Her mind is still facing this lasting depression
If she leaves it all now, really just finally goes
She'll give up that secret that almost everyone knows
And it will hurt her to say that it wont be okay
She's opposing the pirates while they fire away
The Captain's holding her captive, although it sounds strange,
She is who she is, and that won't ever change
Her thoughts are too much, all this happens too fast
Hoping for things that she knows will not last
Or hoping for things that wont come back, for that matter
A lost, lonely Alice running from the Mad Hatter
She starts feeling the pressure breaking in to her veins,
Her heartbeat pumps the pain right back into her brain
But he sighs and cries, "I'm sorry, it wont happen again"
Now she's stuck between loosing him or a friend
But either way, it's all still the same
She's still spinning in circles to the sound of his name
With no destination, without a map or a sign,
She's running away to find a way back in time
She's going somewhere where everyday it wont rain
Where she wont miss anymore, where there is no pain
But it's too much to take while she casts away
There's no way out of meeting her fate, today

Author's Note

Didn't really have a title. Not sure how I feel about some parts of this. Old.