Crossroads Oblivion

They stood at the crossroads
and made a devil's deal
he didn't believe that
it was irrevocably sealed.

They worked out the details
which were one sided at best,
he found true oblivion that
paved his hellish quest.

He sunk to  dark depths
his innocence peeled away,
he'd do the unthinkable
falling further astray.

The road to redemption
covered in needles and blood
the slopes are too slippery-
to grasp those that he loves.

So we wait for salvation
for the light to be found
and hope that he finds
his own solid ground.

Our love never wavers
we all pray for his life
and trust he survives
all this danger and strife.

We live with sharp terror
in our hearts and our souls,
and we wait for the time
when this family is whole.

Reviews

[s y e]

Awwwww, this actually made me cry! I am trying to find the right words to say here while my eyes are filled with tears that just keep falling. You know I am here if you wanna talk, I may only be 16 but I am a good listener. You know, you don't always need to be the strong one. Sometimes even we - as the strong ones - need a little cry, need to breakdown, need to be cared for and showed some affection. We all care for you deeply, here at the cafe (especially me! :)) and I know you will all get through this, I believe you all will. Your son will eventually realise what has been done and broken and he will want to, need to change it.

xox

[icelandicblue]

Oh Noodle I don't want to make you cry. I can't be the strong one anymore it's destroying me and you can't treat an addict the same you would your child. They are opportunists and yes, they are liars. I have fallen for more ruses and scams and each time I say never again. This last one was too much and I realized I am not helping him, in fact I am making him sicker. I have to remove myself from the equation so that he feels compelled to really do something for himself. Right now we are playing hardball with him in hopes that he finds bottom and wants to do the right thing.Thank you so much sweet girl for caring so much. It means the world to me.

[s y e]

You don't always need to be the strong one, take some pressure of yourself sweetie. I know as a mother, it's hard for you to do so but I guess in this situation you need to let him be, as hard as that is. I always care, Blue - especially when it comes to friends, really good friends. x

[icelandicblue]

Thank you, you've touched my heart. I have been so wrapped up in him my other children have suffered. I want to give them attention and love too.

[s y e]

I'm sure they all know that you love them millions and billions and they understand, I'm sure they will.

[Girl Friday (Sarah W.)]

This was haunting... Sometimes we see those around us taking the "dark path" and there is nothing we can do; a powerless feeling. I have dealt with people close to me having addictions and the like, and I have been to many a therapy session to deal with my own feelings on the subject...what I have learned...only the person with the problem can choose to turn things around. As outsiders, and people who care about someone, we want to be the hand that reaches in, scoops them up and injects some sort of sanity into their psyches, but it's just not our place. That is what I got from this, at least...it hit very close to home for me right now. Brings tears to my eyes thinking about it. Well done...

[icelandicblue]

Thank you Sarah,

I am removing that hand of help because each time I extend it i get burned. It is the best advice yet so hard to take. My hands shake and I am on the verge of tears having just done that moments ago. I am a nervous wreck but I must leave it up to him. Thank you for your support.

[Dr. Wood ?]

You have friends here and we all try to share your burden....Be strong and please be assured that in our souls, we are with you

[icelandicblue]

My friends are generous with their strength. Thank you for your friendship Dr. Wood- it means the world.

[Angel]

Sweet lady, my heart breaks for you and for your family. My eyes burn with tears, as the room around me turns to mist...my fingers on the keys continue to search for the right words to give you even as tears all but blind me...but I have none.
Keep writing, keep letting it out unto the page...make us all a part of your support system, your extended family. We are your sisters and brothers, bound not by ties of blood, but of ink.
Just know that I, and I am sure many others, are praying for you, and for your family.

[icelandicblue]

Thank you Angel. I feel safe here expressing myself because I know some may not agree or blame me for my son's addiction. I appreciate your empathy and your support they are priceless.

[Jack...]

Anne, once more your poem saddens my heart. I feel so much anguish for you and your family. Be waiting at the bottom of that slippery slope, I have a feeling he may decide enough is enough and when he does he will need you there.

[icelandicblue]

And we will be waiting. Thanks so much for your support Jack.

[Frieda P]

Sent shivers down my spine and hit my heart like a bullet Anne....heavy sigh here. As usual, there are no words to convey how affecting this is my dear friend.

[icelandicblue]

I just need to process it somehow. I know that these are hard for you to read. I am praying he hits his bottom before it's too late.

[Frieda P]

I keep wondering how many times can you hit rock and how many there are, whenever I think that's it, the depth seems to go deeper.....

[icelandicblue]

I know exactly what you mean. Sometimes when fear has a strangle hold on me I am afraid the pit is bottomless. There are those who overcome this I want us to experience that instead of this constant fear and agitation.

[icelandicblue]

I can't seem to write about anything else right now.

[Frieda P]

That's what's so good about poetry my friend.... purging & healing.