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I'm being stupid

And Irrational

I'm doing everything I shouldn't do

I'm getting caught up with you

 

"It's not healthy."

Hanna says.

"I know,"

I reply

With a sigh.

"I can't stop,

And I don't know why.

No matter how much I try...

He just won't leave my mind."

 

It's just that when you see someone almost everyday,

You become dependent on it staying that way.

I'm quite used to your presence being near

I'm so used to you being here.

Haven't heard from you in a week

And I swear,

Thinking about you is consuming me

And I know

Good

And Well

That it's not healthy

But I can't stop.

Everytime,

I busy

Myself with something different and friendly,

My mind starts wandering

Off to you...

 

I miss you

Is what I think I'm trying to say

I guess I'll just have to wait

Until school starts again....

I suppose I can make it til then...

I'll just have to think of some ways

To spend

These days

I'm so bored

And this doesn't seem like it's paying

Off

Anytime soon

I'd do better accurately counting

The craters on the moon

Then trying to stop thinking about you

 

I'm only typing what I'm feeling

I'm sorry if I'm dealing

Some heavy emotions right now

But it's better to type this out

Then holding it inside

(Between you and me, I'm kind of scared that if I don't write or convey my emotions, I just might explode....mentally, ....and maybe physically too....it's a possibility...)

Besides it's only natural right?

And if we're going to work

I shouldn't be afraid that I might

Scare you off or something

Cause all my life

I imagined that being in a good relationship,

Was being with someone who accepted you as you are.

So from now on, I'm going to lay it down hard

 

It's sorta like this

I'm a lost soul

And you're my North Star

So here I am

Desperately trying to reach you

Although you're up so high and really far

As I follow you on my journey,

I pile the books up

And try

Time after time

To reach you

The handsomest star in the sky

 

I don't have a ride

Not a space ship,

Not a flying car

Not even a jet plane

Because even though we're not the same

And you're like a million light years away

I'm determined to reach you

And when I do get there

I'm there to stay....