On The Road To Recovery

this way to recovery -------> Happiness is on it's way!

So I'm single.

Now What?

 

Move on?

It's kind of hard really...

I fell in love for real

And even though I'm going to learn how to let go

I don't want to really.

But I know I have to

And that's the voice of reason that's ruling me right now

 

I found out that I'm not moving anymore

So now, I get to keep what I have in my life

I'm not leaving my friends,

I'm not leaving my school,

I get to stay in my afterschool activities,

And I can continue to make plans.

 

The duel action program is calling my name

I'm going to try to go to college early

I'm gonna get my head in the game

 

So Priya says, "Do you think that you guys would still be together if he knew you weren't moving?"

 

"Probably not..." I say cause I think the result would be the same. 

"He said that his feelings aren't what they used to be, distance isn't to blame..."

I know that it isn't my fault that we're not together...

Cause I never did anything but be myself

I am who I am...

So I understand that he wasn't the right one for me

But I still feel the pain of what a break up means.

 

It's just day one of recovery

And I suppose that given more time

I could be friends with him

But now, I'm fighting the part of me that wants to be close to him.

I'm not supposed to want him

I'm not supposed to miss him

And I hope that by the end of the summer

I'll come to my long lost senses

And I won't...

Want all of that..

Cause I shouldn't

It's not something I can do anymore

 

What would it even feel like to be friends?

Again, that is...

 

I mean, isn't that the reason I'm here now

because I felt more for him than a friend should?

So now we're going full circle

Back to the beginning

But instead of taking the road we took last time

The one we took Together.

We're choosing seperate paths

The paths we decided not to walk down.

When we were faced with opportunity.

 

I'm gonna start moving on

It makes no sense to carry on

This way...

But still, what do you think about when you thought about him everyday

When you waited for his call

When you waited to hear his voice

When you relived the fun times

What do you use to fill that void.

 

So now...

I'm not done

With wondering about everything.

I'll comfort myself with the fact that

I won't feel this way about him again

After I find out how to make these unwanted feelings of mine disappear.

We'll be almost the splitting image of the friends we once were

And sooner or later another guy,

Who's better

Will make me feel happy again

In the way,

That only a good relationship can.