school

School is a temple

For meaningless education

My mind is force fed

Facts and figures until

It feels as though it will

Split open under the pressure

I can solve simultaneous equations in my sleep

I can list the uses of fullerenes

Until my throat burns dry

I can tell you the enzymes

that run your body

but I can not explain the sadness

that weighs down my bones

I can not give a reason  

For the fatigue that fogs my senses

I don’t know how to beg my

Closest friends to hold me

When my trembling legs give way

I don’t know how to stop my aching

Bones creaking as I crumple to the floor

I don’t know how to live

With the unending agony residing in my heart

they never taught me how to explain

to those who could never understand

that i don't want to die

i just wish i didn't exist

i don't want to feel

but to be numb is far to comfortable

to ever be safe

i don't know how to stop

assuming everyone i turn to

despises my weakness

i don't know how to stop 

the guilt flooding my veins

or the voices convincing me that

i'm just faking, just an attention seeker

school may have taught me

the"facts" of the laws of this world

but it has done nothing

to teach me how to live.

Reviews

[ANTO]

"...I don’t know how to live..."
'...teach me how to live..."

this is all I really heard among the rest. If only they taught such things - I guess thats the family and friends role in life. 'It takes a whole village to raise one child' (paraphrasing badly there but its the jist)

I think if you can have this level of introspection then you can get through it (Life) and even thrive.

[B]

One day you will meet that one teacher or professor that will change your life
Teach you more
Give you a slice of emotional intelligence

I can see what you think and i can agree with you

But with the correct person around
You will receive one day more than just a mere education

Thanks for sharing

[JayceeC]

Numbness is far too comfortable: and this is the biggest stumbling block to living. It makes it hard to go forward when we know there is pain waiting. but I think the pain is what makes us stand up to take notice of how wonderful the highs really are.
Sadly we live in a world ruled by so much fear of offending someone, that schools are no longer able to give the emotional and moral foundations that used to be there in spades along with the science and mathematics and literature. I'm a teacher, so I could go on for days on the subject, but I won't.
Living is just putting one foot in front to the other and doing your best to be happy on any given day. Hopefully somewhere in there we do something that makes other's lives just a little bit happier too.

[Coyote Poetry]

Your words are true.
"school may have taught me
the"facts" of the laws of this world
but it has done nothing
to teach me how to live."
I tell people. School is just a foundation. We take what we need. It is our decision to grasp a lot or nothing. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[inkstainedsoul]

thank you for your kind words :)

[Coyote Poetry]

You are welcome.