Transparent

I close my eyes and see you standing by the cold eastern sea,
It all is like a scene from an epic Hollywood movie
you look at me and shove me into the cold water 
I have no care because next to you the world has become quit kind
you can toss me under and cleanse away all my impurity's 
erase the negativity,
the vision is transposed 
I lay down every night
one scene I can watch again and again
without it getting old
so lost within that one thought
opening my eyes becomes hard to do
because I know I will look around and see nothing new
just a great big empty place,
I want to close my eyes again
drowned in that ocean 
why would I have a chance,
how could I make any difference,
I am solid steal 
bones of dust and a heart wore into rust  
each day I become a little more solid
a little more cold
I feel no place to belong
can never have the comfort to say I'm at home
shunned away and denied
I have always been the dog at the doorsteps,
but I can still close my eyes and see my dream,
And if it is never to be a reality
it is something that will become lost in me
for an eternity.
The mornings are so alone
the nights are so gone
I wonder if it would be the same
if I saw you next to me.
I am like a ghost transparent to the world
there is no way you can really know me
unless you can reach out in touch me,
I speak through the lust in my eyes
and the temperature in my skin,
the action in my hands
no words or tone can replace that
I can only be as I am
so dream I will to see your hair in the wind
 next to the sea as I escape from my own transparency

Reviews

[White Ink]

my favorite lines..

"I am like a ghost transparent to the world
there is no way you can really know me
unless you can reach out in touch me,
I speak through the lust in my eyes
and the temperature in my skin,
the action in my hands
no words or tone can replace that
I can only be as I am
so dream I will to see your hair in the wind
next to the sea as I escape from my own transparency"

sad yet such a nice piece.. well done.

[M.Babu]

Fourth line typo...quit---> ''quite'' maybe? Or i'm confused?

Aside from that...this was such a rush of feeling, description and thought! nicely done!

~M.Babu~

[Thomas Fitzgerald]

A standing place for all feeling and slight of hand, well done

[Helpless]

i agree, best write of them all! your so talented! :)

[KimLove "The Beautiful ..]

Joshua. OMG this is one of your best writes yet. I understand the feeling of living in your dreams. Of being happier there then anywhere. But hearts of steal sooner or later will give way and let you have a new dream. xo