I wouldn't give up

I told myself I wouldn't give up..

I was 19 and I fell in love with this dude. He wasn’t rude or crude.

He was definitely true.

After all of that went down, I promised myself that I would never give up on a dude that easily.

Because in the end, love is love and not one person can tell you how your life is destined to be. 

So I forced myself to get over it because I thought it was just stupid young love.

I told myself that he would come back if it was meant to be.

And he did come back but it was just too late. I already found someone a year later and this man showed me something that no one else did. He was prince charming to me.

Everything he did was a first and he respected me and he loved me for ME.

I asked him to promise me that he would never leave me. He promised me he wouldn’t..

Two years later he joins the Army. I laughed it off thinking he wasn’t serious…

He was serious and I didn’t know how to deal with it…I just did.

Because I told myself that I wouldn’t give up on love because of distance.

Now here I am dealing with the same pain that I first felt back when I was 19

over and over.

Is this how it’s supposed to be for me?

I don’t know but all of this just made this chick stronger.

I’m wonder if this is going to happen any longer.

I know who I am and I still know how to keep my strength.

Because not one person is going to tell me what I can’t take.

For him I do everything. R.Kay it’s for YOU that I do everything.

It might take you a life time to understand that I am sorry.

It might take you forever to know why I’m this hard-a*s.

But don’t get it twisted I’m fragile like glass.

I hope that one day you believe that what I showed you was true love. 

Every thing you gave me was enough.

Every thing you showed me was worth it.

See this heart right here? you hold it.