{{{behind walls}}}

2009

The gray skies have long turned to glassy black.

Taking with it the light of hope and sociability.

Misanthropy and consolation have led to deep mutilation of my cast.

Cutting this facade to my inner-most recesses has opened up a 

whole meaning to the One that dwells within.

Burning and twisting out of sheer boredom and lack of interest.

I am a vanguard of death, a destroyer of dreams.

There is this cavity instead of conscience or so it seems.

Your elegy is my diversion. 

Your tears are my perversion.

You see retention has led to aberration, told to me in a presage.

I fight this maddness for all that I am worth but phantasm always wins.

Locking me up behind walls, behind walls, behind walls of sadness.

Turning my world into an idea, a shadow of a former life.

What used to be just a metaphor has turned into reality.

My dabbling has backfired transforming me into a delegate of darkness.

Fidelity walks hand in hand with stratagem. 

 I am a living contradiction.

This manifestation of what seethes inside me brings me to the ground over and over again.

This lamentation breathes, trying to claw its way out from behind walls, behind walls, behind walls of sadness. 

My shade has withered. 

The sun is my demise.

Author's Note

Reviews

[ImagineItAll]

I have a few favorite lines in here: 1) "I am a vanguard of death, a destroyer of dreams", 2) "There is this cavity instead of conscience or so it seems", 3) "I am a living contradiction", and 4) "What used to be just a metaphor has turned into reality."

This is a really dark poem, reaching deep within you and turning you inside out for the world to see. My only concern? ...and it's only because my schooling failed me miserably concerning english...I am going to have to re-read this again with a dictionary by my side to learn some of the vocabulary that you used. I don't really mind that at all though. I'm quite used to it.

[Thea]

A very deep writing...
"Locking me up behind walls, behind walls, behind walls of sadness."
Wonderfully written... :)))
LIKE!

[Lily Mae]

The delegater of darkness. This captured my attention and held it all the way through. I love the tale of darkness that it weaves and my favorite lines are the last two...just perfect...xx

[Dahlia Phoenix]

A dark poem that conveys so much emotion and it seems like its showing this side no one can interpret on their own. "What used to be just a metaphor has turned into reality." That line is beautifully written in a way that sometimes does show that the metaphors that seem impossible to bring to life can be brought in.
Excellent writing!

[WatashLegend]

I love your ending in this you neatly tied it up and sealed it off incredibly well, the only thing watch out for same line rhymes because they can take away from a poem. This is great, well done

[London]

my shade has withered,
the sun is my demise.

I love this. excellent write!

[Elijah Gleaves]

lol you must've had a pocket dictionary when your wrote this. The vocab is great. its rare when I have to look up words when I poems on this site.

[Ayumu♥]

This was excellently written. So dark and deep. I honestly had to go look up some of the words though. But it is beautilful in a dark sense. I loved this piece. 10/10

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Now this one is amazing!
really enjoyed this

[Kenneth The Poet]

These sound like thoughts you scribbled in a notebook and forgot about until now. It's very off-putting, strange, dark and yet delightful and engaging. I like the last two lines the best. Nice job as always, Josh.