Remembered With Fondness

This is a rant talking to my dad and just remembering him in general.

I wait for you on my birthday,

I got up that morning and looked at my phone

 my mom has already sent me a happy birthday message

Something feels off but I ignore it.

I ignore too much.

I take the dog out and get ready for work but my chest feels tight 

I get a coffee on the way to work cause I just need to wake up and ill be fine.

 My mom brought me a balloon so everyone knows.

It's a ten hour shift and something doesn't sit right. 

I'm curled up to sleep that night before I realize what.

Do you remember my eighteenth birthday? 

You called me out of class to give me a single pink rose, I still have it.

Every year we lived together you would take me out to dinner on my birthday, 

the last time I couldn't make up my mind so you took me out to three different places.

 I told you it was too much and you said that you wanted to try all those places anyways. 

This year I couldn't even look at your picture for more then a moment.

I miss you in December,

 I know what's missing and I try not to think about it.

 I can't help it. 

We use to pick out moms presents together, 

last minute shopping cause you fly in the week before Christmas.

 We use to fly in the week before Christmas. 

Do you remember wrapping presents the night before? 

It happened every year like clockwork and we always said we would get it done earlier but it never worked out. 

I took hours wrapping everything this year, I got it done with days to spare.

I know you aren't coming back 

you would if you could, you were trying to

You worked so hard just to come home. 

Ill love you and miss you every day of my life.

Reviews

[dentprone]

Just amazing...evokes some deep feelings. Authentic and haunting. Please share more of your work.

[K.James]

thank you, this means a lot as i have read some of your work and it is wonderful.

[dentprone]

I really had to "step into" your piece before it really hit me, and hit me it did. There are some powerful ideas there that I didn't really catch as I skimmed over it the first time or two.
I'm not sure my work is all that great, but thank you much for the compliment.