Shadow of myself

I long to hide,

Inside,

This façade of love.

Feigning that skin is all I’m made of,

That purity is synonymous with

The former self I use to be…

I’ve gone so far off the deep end,

Who would want me?

Attention is this inherent need

That swallows simplicity,

For its complications run deep,

For how many lovers can you keep

And how many years can you weep?

I don’t apologize for the multifaceted woman I am,

For rarity is a gem,

And light shines from each polished side

For the wealth of the soul

Is more prized than gold.

I long to hide

In ignorance that my beauty is sought after,

Like some extrusive rock that has been forced

Out the earth, to be cherished in hands

That discard when in their eyes

They see a pebble,

Intrinsic value

But an extrinsic appreciation.

For how can one be truly loved,

If inside they are withering,

Unable to see a tree taking root,

Into something which bears fruit,

And gives life,

Whose beauty is in the strength

And resilience of the growth.

No longer do I want to hide,

But I want to shine,

In my glory and light

That I have been formed from the

Very beginning of me,

And so love exists in this once barren soul,

For I am a daughter of God,

Who deserves gold,

And a man to see how priceless

A woman who cherishes her essence,

Uniqueness, beauty, for she has finally found herself,

And loves who she has become.

I wait until this day to come,

For I am tired of hiding in the

Shadow of myself. 

Author's Note

Written a few years back.......