“I was never able to sleep” 5:49am /// 7-27-19 ||| KH

ts'ed

“I was never able to sleep”
5:49am /// 7-27-19 ||| KH

I hold all of my dreams in the palms of my hand
Wondering if maybe you’d understand
The dust in my hair
And the glitter in my eyes
Irritate the lens I see from inside
I could never tell
At least I knew them well

How does one not remember 
Events from their life
Tho the road is long 
And the way is far 
My shoes have since worn down 
And all I see are sparks 
Burning rubber in the concrete pavement
What if I chose to fall ?
And burning rubber
On my concrete heart
What if I chose to tell them all?

Oh myself included
Everyone’s a ticking time bomb waiting to explode
My mind is so exclusive
The stars and moon alike
I have so many thoughts
The sun shuns me sometimes. 

Say, “ how my heart is quaking
With the morning dew
How I never seemed to expect the new 
Things are always happening 
Things that happen here
What if I just happened to
Shed a single tear

“Would no one notice 
Would they all be busy
Would they seek the shelter
They didn’t get with me
Would they be oblivious
To the masses pain
Would they seek the blade
Right after they’ve been chased”

See I knew there was something ahead of me to say
I never knew what it was
And what was it, his name?
I never seemed to question 
The starlets in his eyes 
For when he did come one night
All I did was shut my eyes and he walked away

He just wanted me to sleep
But I couldn’t deal with the pain