to be in love

hiss

no- no word on how he is
just....
silence and darkness and flamboyance-
i am not floatable.....
i cannot simply “bask” in the water: alas....
i would drown....
there’s too much!
simply way too much to sink me now, if i let it-

so much to lose
so much that i’ve given into
so many mistakes
awry goings’ my way
i have so much on the line
so much on my heart
so many days i’d like to leave 

behind- roll it all into a ball and

 just hope it throws itself away

verse after verse
split vein after vein
nowhere to run
it’s all driving me insane

no one to talk to
no one to understand
weak as i am
i still have a better plan

close my eyes and dream
dream of a better place
a better world
of better days