Healing Through Journaling: Chapter 3 - Khat

final installment

7.42am

9.19pm

9.10.21

Khat

Healing Through Journaling: Chapter 3

Day 3

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Dearest Love,

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Last night, or early this morning, I attempted to achieve astral projection, a feat I am always trying to get an upper hand on. When I’d get scared, or tense up, it’s you who always tells me that everything is alright and not to worry. Last time, I saw a stuffed toy in the astral realm hanging from the hallway ceiling.

No matter, all things aside, this morning has been revealing.

However, revealing it was, it shouldn’t be any different.

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8.19am

“Keshi” is always gonna be my go-to artist to listen to.

His voice is so smooth.

I don’t have anything else to say, just that it’s gonna be the 11^th tomorrow, and I don’t know… sad day for sure.

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9.10am

I keep getting distracted, oh boy, do I need a break, oof!

Stay well then, yeah?

Mooch!

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3.25pm

I fell asleep, and now I feel guilty, but I know I shouldn’t, and I wrote two poems about it, but that didn’t do any good, so I’m sorry. I’m pretty sure I thought the timestamps were helping, but they aren’t really helping, but it’s how I stay organized and so now I’m in a really big pickle, but I don’t mind, coz I’ll still timestamp, coz it helps me understand when I resume and where I leave off. In truth, I really am sorry…

I do get oh so distracted, I-

Sleep was good, Lily.

I had good dreams of magic and power.

I’m feeling sad right now, but then I remember poetry makes me so happy and I shouldn’t think about the likes coz sometimes I obsess over that, and it gets me nowhere.

We’re going out today, me and your grandfather.

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5.54pm

We just came back, sugar!

About to watch more Merlin,

There’s 5 seasons… -_-

Much fun!

I used to be alone in missing you, but I needed to not feel so alone and so publishing it on Poetizer makes it easier to cope, make sit not so lonesome.

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6.30pm

Was talking to your auntie,

We have the best time together, we make each other laugh so much,

We are so free with each other, it makes me wonder if those times that things have been happening, I didn’t tell her what was happening and that makes me think those weren’t for me; the guys, the relationships,

I’m happy with how things turned out,

I told her about Kelly,

Her worries over the Islamic rule of interfaith marriage,

I’m not worried, I know love will win, as it’s always done,

Merlin!! Onwards, steed!!

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9.15pm

I’m still watching Merlin!

Um, I don’t know what to say to Gramma, I guess I still need more time to think about that, and I guess I’ll still continue to write poems on the fly, I don’t know how much more writing I need to do, I think I’m gonna be ok for now. I guess I was only expecting there to be three chapters, I didn’t wanna bother anyone and I do want to resume normal programming.

Here’s what I’ll do, I’ll only write when I need to, instead of feeling like I need to, so its not an obligation.

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Until next time, sweet baby!

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With all my love,

Your mother.