Never land

My attempt at organizing the big confused muddle of thoughts knocking around in my head right now.

Disappointed; bathed in wrath.

I wanna shave with glass.

And flaunt my lipless grin at the people I pass.

I always did well in class,

until I'd fall on my a*s,

and then just lay back in the grass

painting the sky with my past.

 

And seeing only mocking faces.

Laughing at my lack of social graces.

My brain says it wasn't like that, but my feelings don't listen.

My burning eyes glisten

until the tears are boiled away.

I take refuge in rage

and escape to the darkness.

Never thought it'd be as hard as this.

To love, to listen, to understand

I'm still just a boy playing man.

But it's getting lonely in never-never land.

The lost boys ran away

with winsome mermaids

And all the old games

 

have become solitaire

I talk to empty air.

I pretend my friends are still there.

And I guess that they are, but it's different

Seperated only by distance.

 

But feels like miles.

There's sadness behind my smile.

In the back of my throat.

Where I store words I never spoke.

So I pollute them with smoke.

And hack them up as phlegm.

 

If it comes down to me or them.

Then it can't be me.

I learned this much from history.

A general's useless without any soldiers.

The fire sputters and smolders.

My hot anger gets colder.

And I can think again.

Author's Note

My emotions tend to have no bearing on real world events as a consequence of living entirely in my head. I liked the poem though. Hope you do.

Reviews

[Breezie Kae]

Wow. This poem is amazing. Really deep.
Good job.

[just is]

have become solitaire
I talk to empty air.
I pretend my friends are still there.
And I guess that they are, but it's different
Seperated only by distance.

I can really feel the emotion put into this, I liked these lines here. well presented.