Home Is A Lie

I can't do this. At least, not on my own. 

Why do I feel so alone? 

Why do I feel so lost? 

God knows I’ve tried to feel anything but this, yet nothing ever works. I’ve cried out everything I have, I’ve screamed out my sorrows. I’ve pleaded with myself to be happy again, to be alive. But my mind won’t listen, won’t take away this pain; instead it clouds my mind, drowns me with its overbearing hands.

They say home is where your heart is set in stone, 

it’s where you go when you're alone, 

it’s where you go to rest your bones. 

They say its not just where you lay your head, 

or where you make your bed, 

but they don’t know this home I live in. 

They don’t know that home is what makes me alone, or that my bones so desperately need to rest. But my heart is indeed set in stone; a stone so strong and unrelenting it refuses to let me leave. This stone has taken away my freedom, my spirit, my will, and I fear that here, in this place they call home, my bones will rest forever.

Escaping 

is 

not 

an 

option, 

not for me; 

not without some help. 

I need a helping hand, a gentle, caring, hand. For once in my life I need something gentle. For without help I will inevitably slip away into the maze that is my world, unnoticed. 

Forever gone, 

lost in the far reaches of abuse and neglect.  Lost in the darkness, lacking the only serenity needed to keep me afloat...

Love.

Reviews

[TheSweet]

Very interesting take on the horror of something that is supposed to be a comfort to you. It's a similar skill used when horror movies use little girls or other such seemingly safe / innocent things. Kudos for a disturbing and interesting read. Thanks for sharing :)

[MoriartyMesa]

This could have been a nice mental screaming match between two people. Nothing said allowed, but all thought, hope I didnt miss the point, i have been drinking.

[Danielle]

Wow! There have been times in my life where I can relate.

[BrokenDreamer]

I know exactly how this feels. I really hope that gentle hand will reach out to you. Great piece:)

[Michael Thrower]

I love how this is written. I made something similar a while ago, but I never posted it. If you've ever seen or played Kingdom Hearts, that's the tone I really got from this piece. I love it. It really speaks out, and helps you feel rather than see.

[forevermore1218]

beautiful :)

[victoria]

Oh such a heart wrenchingly sad story powerfully articulated, I hope a gentle hand reaches out to help.

[Chris]

A lot of truths wander your words... I hope the hurts ease.