Dead or Alive?

How would it be,

if I died tonight?

If I took that last breath,

when talking to you.

You are one

of few who care,

one who listens

but I still feel like,

something is really missing

a piece of myself 

that has dissapeared

that probably is gone forever

the aspect of life,

is gone to me.

I keep trying,

just to fail over again every time.

You say that it will all be okay?

Well its not,

never has been..

Do I even belong alive?

Or would everyone be better off 

if I was no longer around

would you even notice?

Notice I never said anything to you

that day or night,

or the next week 

as it passed by slowly?

Would I even be missed?