Goodbye good bye(suicide note)

Goodbye good bye(suicide note)

A Poem by Krista

Goodbye goodbye
cruel cruel word
as the thoughts spin around my head,
without a soul to notice.
If nothing was said
if nothing was saw
would nobody know?
The feelings of no hope
of ending what little is left,
is what is running through my mind.
Is there hope left?
Is there a purpose?
A meaning?
The blood calms
the pain is nice
the scars are memories.
Of everything I done bad and wrong,
Is anything I do worth it...
trying to finish what I start
trying to keep a promise that was made
but it seems so useless.
Putting myself out of this life
this misery
is the nicest thing I could do 
not only for me
but for everyone around me.
Is anything real anymore?
the feelings,
is it just a lie
like my life feels.
Let the blood flow
let the pills be taken.
Just put it to an end
make everybody around me happy.
For the few who may 
or do care 
I do apologize for,
not staying around
living the life I promised.
But living what I am,
is no longer worth it in many eyes.
I'm more a failure,
f**k up.
I'm more trouble then is needed,
start what I finish
seems the best choice for me.
For the pain left behind,
friends are what I have and ones I do love 
but is it worth it?
I know I shouldn't,
but it runs through my head.
Finding myself where I shouldn't be,
the love is there but is it really true and real?
Should tonight be the last?
Should it be goodbye?

© 2017 Krista


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Added on December 16, 2017
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Krista
Krista

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My name is Krista. I'm 27 years old. I have an eating disorder and am a cutter. I'm also depressed most of the time a very negative out look on life. more..

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