Goodbye good bye(suicide note)

Goodbye goodbye

cruel cruel word

as the thoughts spin around my head,

without a soul to notice.

If nothing was said

if nothing was saw

would nobody know?

The feelings of no hope

of ending what little is left,

is what is running through my mind.

Is there hope left?

Is there a purpose?

A meaning?

The blood calms

the pain is nice

the scars are memories.

Of everything I done bad and wrong,

Is anything I do worth it...

trying to finish what I start

trying to keep a promise that was made

but it seems so useless.

Putting myself out of this life

this misery

is the nicest thing I could do 

not only for me

but for everyone around me.

Is anything real anymore?

the feelings,

is it just a lie

like my life feels.

Let the blood flow

let the pills be taken.

Just put it to an end

make everybody around me happy.

For the few who may 

or do care 

I do apologize for,

not staying around

living the life I promised.

But living what I am,

is no longer worth it in many eyes.

I'm more a failure,

f**k up.

I'm more trouble then is needed,

start what I finish

seems the best choice for me.

For the pain left behind,

friends are what I have and ones I do love 

but is it worth it?

I know I shouldn't,

but it runs through my head.

Finding myself where I shouldn't be,

the love is there but is it really true and real?

Should tonight be the last?

Should it be goodbye?