to sleep into nothingness

I wish to sleep and never wake
to breathe my last as I dream my days
I hope to see the setting sun
the orange horizon burning bright

I flit between the darkness and light
the tragic realm of soulless screams
that melt away the entwining ribbons of bloodied flesh

I fly above the scorched realm of unwatered seas
the depthless pit of the scorned and deceased
that pummel each other with words of hatred and dread

I bind myself with bandages soaked in oil
the incandescence of my spirit lights them ablaze
they torch my flesh and scourge my soul
I scream, I cry, but never plead
this is all I’ve ever wanted since I could breathe

since I could hear and understand
since I learnt the ways of the land
I’ve wanted nothing more than death
a swift, painless one
but the only one I’ll ever get is the one that I’m now in

an endless torture
remorseless spikes down my throat
raking deep with every breath
canine claws at my neck
canvassing my grimy flesh

I will never die
but yet I’ll try to send my life away
on a boat, a ferry, to the other side
where life does not exist
where nothing dreams and nothing lives

Reviews

[Veil]

This is an excellent poem. It caused me emotional upheaval as I read it, but then felt less alone in this world afterward.

[earthgirl16]

this is such a good poem, it really grasps the reader and i personally love it.

[An Li Leung]

Thank you... I'm having a hard time now.