Breaking Boundries

Breaking Boundaries

 

My mind created boundaries

Boundaries that kept me from believing certain things

Pleasant things that make me happy or confident

These boundaries kept in the negative

The positive things shriveled up and died

Never to be grown again

 

I had to live with this boundary

I couldn’t find a way to tear it down

I wasn’t strong enough

I was too weak from starvation of the positive things that never came in

I thought I would never see happiness again

 

I tried to let in the positives

They only went in one ear and out the other

Inside my mind it was dark and cold

There was no sun that provided light and warmth

There was nothing good

 

Nothing could live in my mind besides all the negative things

The negatives flourished

Making themselves stronger and me weaker

 

It got so bad that all I want to do is shrivel up and die

I would rather do that than live with the torturers that live in my mind

They beat and scream at me

 

One day I walked along the boundaries and found a crack in the boundary

I scraped at it

A chunk fell

Sunlight streamed through the hole

Hope fluttered in me for the first time in many long years

 

I kept scraping for days

But the negatives found me

They filled the hole

They took away the little hope I had

It was all gone

 

Everything was lost for me

Everything gone

Every little bit of happiness stripped from me

The negatives were demons that invaded my mind

 

I went back to the wall and found more cracks

Hope fluttered in me once again

I heard a thud and found that a chunk had fallen

I thought of the thoughts I hadn’t know for so long

The thoughts that had been banned

The positives

 

A piece of the wall fell with every thought

The negatives came to get me but I was armed

I thought all of the positives and they fell to the ground

The sunlight danced across my face and warmed it

My mind filled with color

With that the wall fell

 

Never to return to me again I lived the rest of my life

I was confident but not cocky

I was happy for once

More people loved me

The rest of my life was lived with the magic of a smile

I was happy to my last breath and beyond