Sans Name (for now)

I hate that it rhymes, but the rhyming was unavoidable.

and i want to close the door to my private life
and have a tearful, weepy, private cry
and let my shoulders sag and shake
and wish my world will be okay.

just for once i want to smile,
and look back on life, for just a while
i want to be glad for all i did
and not regret the chances missed.

don't dwell
don't think
don't sleep
don't blink.

it needs to be quiet, when they arrive...
...i want true happiness for a while.