Mind Games

a little poem about social anxiety

I play with words,
but they always win,
to speak them out loud,
might be a sin.

actions and movements dance in my mind,
i'll just run it one more time
or two
perhaps I can mime?

you speak,
i wait for awhile
it's time for me to reply
but i only smile

i'm aware of the rumors
i know how they talk
i cant help but hear it
and some watch like a hawk

its simply impossible
quite a shame
to try to talk to others
when your mind plays a game

Reviews

[Carol Cashes]

Mind games are more complex than champion chess! This is quite a literary way of explaining/describing social anxiety.

"actions and movements dance in my mind,
i'll just run it one more time
or two
perhaps I can mime?"

Playing out scenarios in our heads will silence the most innocent and benign responses.

Nicely penned.

[lostinthewaves]

Yes, it's difficult to perceive good things when we run through scenarios in our heads. Thank you for your thoughts Carol :)

[Carol Cashes]

My mother calls it "borrowing trouble". Methinks this explains it much better.

[Matthew Kult]

Strategically manipulating

Great Read

Matthew

[Chaplily44]

Great work! I really related to this! I think sometimes I have selective mutism and people always judge me for it. I love the line “I’m aware of the rumours...” This poem is all too true

[AcasualPawn]

And i love mind games......

Nice read

[Navigator]

"Oh no! I've said too much.". R.E.M. This isn't unusual thought, but it is not presented on TV commercials on the Life network. This presents human interaction as a board game, and as a seasoned sales person, I know it is.

[lostinthewaves]

I appreciate the input but it's just a brush on my own experience with social anxiety without going too deep. Thanks for the input!

[Farah Husain]

I like this! Sums up the feeling of social anxiety and the wanting to but not being able to talk to others. Great work!

[lostinthewaves]

Thank you!