everything ends eventually

final in a series

I’d sleep if I could dream
I’d dream if I had the time
I’d have the time if I could get up
I’d get up if I wasn’t always sleeping

here we go, another time:

A town’s worth of houses
families are the blankest expression;
I’d do it to you like you do it to me
if I knew that you’d get away fine

I’d drown all these crying babies
if I knew their crying would stop
I’d take them to the backyard
and I’d let the rain dissolve us

It’s hard to be the better person
when you forget you’re trying

I’d live a life if I had a reason
I’d have a reason if I knew why
I’d know why if I had tried a little harder
I’d have tried a little harder if I had known there'd be a reason for living a life

here we are, same place as last time:

Maybe I’d fall from a cliff, but only if
I knew you wouldn’t be there to see;
I’d fall to the floor and beg, if only
I’d known I wouldn’t have enough time

You could lay on the grass and be someone
You could put up your fist and fight
You could try anyway; you could always go on

It’s hard to be alive
when you forget that’s the point

(end of a phase)

I’m coming through... telling everybody I’m doing fine (a liar)

It’s been so long since I couldn’t go on
But since then, I’ve found a way to continue

And everybody congratulates me--everything is wonderful (a lie)

they’ll never know--or maybe they already do

but

everything ends eventually

It’s all I can do until it’s time again

but this time, there won’t be another chance

...

I’d fall asleep forever if I knew I’d never wake up.

Author's Note

This is the final in a series of poems that are inspired by the album "The Devil And God Are Raging Inside Me", by Brand New. It is one of my favorites, and it has a lot of personal worth to me. That album has helped me get through so much. It has been a great experience being able to write these and share them with you all. I hope you have enjoyed reading them!


<3 <3 Love, Sofia Guerra