Heaven Pennies

I know I'm slipping.

But I know what's real.

I know she's gone. I know she won't ever come back. I know life won't go back to normal. Ever.

And I know about heaven pennies. Those random little copper coins you see on the sidewalk, that let you go through with life. Because after she died, her dad found one.

Why can't I, though?

It's confusing, they way that I feel like life hates me and throws all it's got at me. But my friends, they act otherwise. I wouldn't be here, if I didn't have them.

But why can't I find heaven pennies?

Is it because life really does hate me?

Or is it because I don't need them?

Reviews

[PyroKitty24]

I think it's because you don't need them ; )

First of all, this writing was really great. Besides the fact that I can relate, your writing style really explains how you're feeling and will help those who can never relate to how you're feeling.

Second of all, as I mentioned before, I can relate and know how this feels. Three years ago one of my best friends died, and I felt the same way. I didn't know what to do with my life anymore, and admittedly I tried to kill myself a few times.

It gets easier as time goes by. No, it never truly gets better, but it's easier to continue on with life without the pain constantly taking you down and trying to tear you apart. I just want to let you know that it gets better and that there are always people there that you can talk to, including me if you'd like.

Oh, and it is good to write things like this too! I found that had helped me.

[Silent Knight]

Very nice. I know how hard it is to lose someone. Life doesn't hate you. And you have friends to rely on. very nice piece of writing.