I was going to write something, I
forget now though. It was sometime between the two times I burst into
tears. Well, I know it had to do with The Perks of Being a
Wallflower which is the reason I
cried, but now I don't know.
All I
know is that I feel numb. That kind of numb you only feel after
reading a book that changes your life. Am I the only person who gets
like this? Where I half to listen to slow songs because my brain is
so foggy and cluttered with thoughts and noise I can't even
comprehend fast songs? When it feels like every nerve ending has been
plugged with wax? Well, I must read too much if I've felt like this
more than once.
I
didn't even feel it with The Hunger Games or
Divergent, two of my
favorite books, but I felt it with When You Reach Me, a
book that will stay with me for the rest of my life. And I felt it
with The Perks of Being a Wallflower,
or rather, feeling it. All I can think about is Charlie and Sam and
Mary Elizabeth, and how that book was just regular life (sort of),
but it was so... I don't even know, I need a word. I'm not sure what
I opened Microsoft Word for the first time, or even what I planned on
writing once I started typing the second time. And I have no idea
where I'm going with this, or even what I've just written, because
I'm that numb, just floating around inside of my head, the amazing
words floating around in my head:
“And
in that moment, I swear we were infinite.”
There,
that's the word.
Infinite,
The Perks of Being a Wallflower is
infinite.