Passion Vs. Logic

I feel so betrayed!

how could you do me like this? 

how could you lead me on to believe that things would be so right, 

so blissfully wonderful only to watch me get hurt and slowly bleed 

while you get out of harm's way of the blame?

you act so innocent, like you had my best intentions in mind and yet,

you had only your own. you knew i would be hurt.

you knew that a piece of me would die once it all ended.

and yet you slowly urged me on. 

"you can do this"

"it will happen"

"you can handle it"

and each time that my mind is telling me different, 

you convince me to do what FEELS right.

what FEELS good.

not now but RIGHT now. this moment. now or never.

you gave me a constant ultimatum that I couldn't refuse.

and the thing that compelled me so strongly is that you had nothing to lose.

whether I followed you or not, you would not suffer.

 all i knew is that it felt so overwhelmingly good to listen to you.

when i did what you wanted, when i followed your lead,

you gave me what I wanted until i. was. in. a. state. of. EUPHORIA!

but in the long run, you weren't good for me. 

When i drew my self to you,

 I sacrificed the filet mignon i would get tomorrow for the burger i got today.

Some days I wish I could amputate you from my life. However, the moment i get rid of you would be the moment that I am no longer what makes me me. 

However, Passion, I will no longer let you compel me, drive me, force me to your will. 

It will be I that influences YOU.