white girl

just a few thoughts put down to reflect on further at a later time

I was born a white girl. I grew up not fitting in with white people. Mental illness and addiction are a predominant theme in my family. Being poor and having a crazy family is a deficit in most cases, and then add white and you are trash. Add female and you are prey.

I tried doing all the white things that white people do but I felt like a fake and I still did not fit. White men don't like me (but it is ok because I dont like most of them). I try to not see in terms of color of skin or race but it is impossible because every one has to identify with something in order to find where they fit. That is the hard part when you dont fit with who you look like.

In my heart I am brown and black and yellow and red and all shades of those who have been down and under. When I meet people I remember that I am not who I look like and give that grace to others.

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