invisible man

the exictiment and energy of a child fanatizing about being one of their favorite characters came true for a man many years later and the results were not what he expected

When I was a young boy my vivd thoughts and wild imagination took a whole new turn.... I read Ralph Ellison's invisible man and wondered back in 1952 did he know something that none of us knew? I remember wishing I was Ralph Ellison's invisible man, not for the discourse but for what my imagination could bring, imaging me going anywhere ,sneaking on that Mr frosty ice cream truck and getting all the ice cream I wanted, showing up late for class during a test but not really and visiting the girls locker room when lets just say it was busy and now, now as I am older the thoughts of the super bowl ,standing right there on the sidelines , or visiting Cuba and walking aimlessly thru a majestic ,beautiful land without anyone aware of my presence or, or going to Pakistanand finding osama bin laden and in a whisper getting rid of him without a trace........have entered my mind, but tonight I went out to a bar and I saw people I knew but for the first time in my life I actually....felt Invisible. It was busy, I played pool as I always do and I played darts as well, I win most of the time in pool and tonight surprisingly I won in darts... music was pumping and chatter could be heard all around but I was alone in anotherparadox of self doubt. hey I am here , does anyone see me? Hi, I am mark , how are you? --OK , no problem he did not hear me!!really!!OK !!! I give up my game ,,you guys play.....I said you guys play........I SAID YOU GUYS PLAY!!!!SILENCE.......then music , then chatter, then I walked out and headed to my truck. no goodbyes, no,, where are you going? nothing, I was invisible, I was sad, Ralph , you have it all wrong, it is so depressing, so hurtful to be invisible, no more fantasying about being here or there. no more making invisible, sexy, Ralph it hurt real bad, I was invisible tonight and nothing you wrote could make me feel good, but I vow with my words I will never ever be invisible again

Author's Note

this is actually a true story