Paralyzed

Paralyzed.

Not a state of being, but a simple idea

A f*****g idea yet I can't move

can't breath can't even make a sound

The room is spinning and Theres voices all around

say something, anything let her know your there

Still your paralyzed and she's thinking you don't even f*****g care

But You love her, you love her more than you ever thought you could

More than you know you should

And that's the horror of this game

that's the root of it's parasitic name

LOVE, a fools paradise, and it's oh so very clever

It pulls you further down until your love is lost forever

So I severed mind from passion and now I'm just a shell

Cowering inside while creating a personal hell

Left to dwell In my fears, alone once again

Count to ten, it'll be better by then, this nightmare will have it's end

My friend, the nightmares are real,

They don't live in the dark 

They live in my head not my heart

They simply come alive at night, when I'm weakest there's no fight 

So you see, they eat at me and soon I'll snap 

You see, It's fear that broke the camels back

Fact: there's a million words I'd love to say but I'm frozen ...

Frozen and I'm numb,can't feel a f*****g thing but my heart is pounding like a drum

Try to  down the rum, thinking that'll give you courage 

But you've succumb, acting dumb and that's were fear emerges 

Ice surges through your veins,and stains your perception of love until it's crimson red

Until it rushes to your head where passion collides 

And your strength comes crashing like the tides

No where to hide, can't say that you cried 

But you did, your just a kid, man you gotta find your head 

Close your eyes and you rehearse every word she's ever said 

I love you, why don't you say it back 

But your paralyzed and it's courage that you lack.