Transition to womanhood

I was never like anyone else,

I always felt different.

I knew I had to learn how to act properly.

 Never really understanding why I was here.

Only trusting God that I was meant for something.

He told me I would be great,

I would be looked up to. 

While I was growing up I never really had friends 

One or two good ones 

But after a while they didn't come around anymore 

I was always the shy one,  

sitting in the corner watching the world go by.

I never really participated in life.  

Just looking around hoping someone would smile at me;

wishing someone would reach out.

I always imagined someone would take me under their wing,

show me how to make friends,

encourage me to be myself.

But that person never came.

Day after day,

through a lot of prayer.

Slowly but surely, 

I've made it to where I am now. 

Still learning how to befriend others

the fear of rejection is still there,

ready to show its ugly head.

No, I must be brave!

I've become the person that I had always dreamed about. 

The girl who helps others be themselves 

& crawl out of their lonely shell.

God showed me how to be a friend,

the way I wished someone would of been there for me.

No judgement.

No fear.

No rejection.

Just open arms and a smile.

Yes, I believe this is what God meant for me to be.