Walls

So many things I want to say 

Things I want to tell

 But I keep them to myself 

I try not to let anyone in

 I try not to let them get too close 

So when you want to talk,

 I laugh and joke 

With friends it's easier.

 I tell them some things 

so they think they know me

 When they really don't. 

I listen to them 

Yes, I know all their secrets. 

Everything that they struggle with 

And I help them over come them. 

They don't know any of my secrets.

 I keep the hidden

 Pretending I don't have any 

With you it's so much harder

 If I talked even a little

 You could see right through my walls

 That's what I'm afraid of.

 I've been comfortable in them for so long

That Im not sure how to be myself without them.

 Watching friend after friend fall in love. 

Leaving me behind.

 I always thought I didn't need anyone 

I just had 'boyfriends' to occupy my time.

 I never really liked them.

 I never respected any of them.

 I never let them hug me 

Or even touch me. 

I've always had a problem with touching

 It seemed to make my walls start to crumble.

 Without my walls, What would I be ? 

They are my comfort... 

No, They were my comfort. 

I want to be free of them 

But I don't know how. 

Too many years of torment 

 Made them strong.

 I need help.

 Help me break my walls!

Reviews

[Green]

This is... Powerful. I liked the shorter lines, it helped develop the overall tone of the poem - or at least it did for me. I especially liked how I could, in a small way, relate. We all have our walls and it's nice to see someone put a feeling into words so eloquently.

[MAC]

a passionate write...flows perfectly!