Am I Wasting my Efforts?

It's hard only wanting one person
And them seeming not to want you.
You try any way you can to get a reaction out of them
Even at the cost of your dignity.
Month after month you try
Try to be friends
Even though you want more...
Just trying to be a part of their life.

Finally, you get to a point of breaking
Him not making a move
And you are in wanting for this pain to cease
Its time to ask that question,
The one thing that can make or break this 'thing'
Am I wasting my efforts?

I may be impatient
I may be confusing
Or even a bit dramatic.
So I will make this all clear.
I just don't want to be strung along.
I want you
But everyone has their limits.
I've put so much time into the chance of being with you.
I've put my emotions into this more than I've ever had before.
At least I will never regret trying.

I just feel that all my efforts are at a loss.
It's not as if you aren't worth it...
Believe me, you are.
What good are feeling if you cannot express them?
Either through actions towards your beloved
Or the way you talk to them.
That's the problem,
We don't talk.
How am I supposes to express myself if there are no opportunities to do so?

I don't mean to hurt you
I honestly don't mean to trouble you at all.
You have had too much hurt for one life time.
I don't want to cause anymore.


Now you know what has been going through my mind.
I am willing to wait years if I have to.
I know God will give me what I need to do so.
I just need some sort of understanding between us.
A promise of a future.

Am I wasting my efforts?
Well, that isn't for me to answer.

Reviews

[M.E.Lyle]

Well, you certainly have expressed yourself here. Sometimes (it's lecture time ) the wanting is the thing. We want so badly it hurts. I want a shiny new car, but I know in three years the shine will wear off, and I'll want another new shiny car. Wanting is good, just don't be too disappointed when the shine wears off.
I hope you get your man and he is all that you've dreamed he would be.